So much has happened since the last time I wrote here, it seems like another life. I can not even place myself mentally in a memory that allows me to remember creating this website and blog in the first place. I followed my own advice, for a time. Things were going well-ish. Looking back now, I just made it look that way when it was really just a moment away from
hitting a wall. Here is the wall. It's here. The wall is my health. In the pursuit of going the extra mile and running top speed for an extended period of time while not eating enough nutrient dense foods and drinking enough clean living water, I allowed my will to be put aside under the notion, "ah, its vegan!" I was reminded that just because something is plant based, doesn't mean that it's good for you or should be consumed more than sparingly. Shoulda been able to see that one coming. I didn't. My attitude created an issue where there once was none. My own negativity has been the source of so much pain and turmoil. My inability to get moving, press the start button or initiate action is based in the pain of motion. My body hurts when I move. That is probably not a good sign.
For so long I have influenced others to eat in a way that will allow their bodies to heal and recover but I did not give myself the chance to do the same. I let others, who are very important in my family's structure, dictate how I got paid. After countless years of working in the restaurant business, there was no amount of time in a kitchen that would allow my family to build a foundation of financial freedom and equity.
Many moons of contemplation later, I came to the conclusion that the most import thing to me is my kids. A short time following that conclusion The Universe brought all the pieces to me to be able to be with them all day. Now I am charged with taking advantage of this time to reset and I get to easily forgive and release all of the past and anything that I no longer need. I choose to fill my world with the joys I allowed in. I approve and love myself and there were times along the way and I was wrong. There were times I was right. All this time has given me many lessons and I so grateful now that I have received what I prayed for and the past is over. I am free.
I seldom take the time to talk to myself on this platform or any other but now I feel or what is happening in my head. Here, now, I feel free to say whatever come out. I feel like I have
hitting a wall. Here is the wall. It's here. The wall is my health. In the pursuit of going the extra mile and running top speed for an extended period of time while not eating enough nutrient dense foods and drinking enough clean living water, I allowed my will to be put aside under the notion, "ah, its vegan!" I was reminded that just because something is plant based, doesn't mean that it's good for you or should be consumed more than sparingly. Shoulda been able to see that one coming. I didn't. My attitude created an issue where there once was none. My own negativity has been the source of so much pain and turmoil. My inability to get moving, press the start button or initiate action is based in the pain of motion. My body hurts when I move. That is probably not a good sign.
For so long I have influenced others to eat in a way that will allow their bodies to heal and recover but I did not give myself the chance to do the same. I let others, who are very important in my family's structure, dictate how I got paid. After countless years of working in the restaurant business, there was no amount of time in a kitchen that would allow my family to build a foundation of financial freedom and equity.
Many moons of contemplation later, I came to the conclusion that the most import thing to me is my kids. A short time following that conclusion The Universe brought all the pieces to me to be able to be with them all day. Now I am charged with taking advantage of this time to reset and I get to easily forgive and release all of the past and anything that I no longer need. I choose to fill my world with the joys I allowed in. I approve and love myself and there were times along the way and I was wrong. There were times I was right. All this time has given me many lessons and I so grateful now that I have received what I prayed for and the past is over. I am free.
I seldom take the time to talk to myself on this platform or any other but now I feel or what is happening in my head. Here, now, I feel free to say whatever come out. I feel like I have